Dear Mommy Candice ~ Part 2



Dear Mommy Candice (Part 2),

Remember when you wrote "Dear Mommy Candice" to the mom you hoped to be one day?...oh yea, you were actually pregnant then and you didn't even know it.  Fooled ya!
Good thing you didn't actually go horseback riding and drink that purse full of wine.
Remember when you didn't get a positive ovulation test that month and you were kind of ticked off because you felt like you had taken those "evil-twin Candice" inducing meds for no reason?  But then you decided to not be mad about it because then you could just relax that month and know that good ol' aunt flo was coming at the end of the month, without it being a surprised or disappointed.  Well, I'm pretty sure that was God's way of "tricking" you into relaxing and being even more surprised when you got that positive pregnancy test...God's cool that way (even though you still made Will buy 2 more pregnancy tests, just to confirm that you weren't hallucinating).
Isn't it kinda funny that you signed another year lease on your one-bedroom apartment right before you found out you were expecting? No? Not really?  ...Well that's okay, babies don't take up too much room when they are that little anyway.  I mean, no, you won't be able to walk in your apartment with all the contraptions that come along with a baby, but that's okay, who needs to walk around anyway?
Looking back, it should have tipped you off that you were pregnant when you got annoyed at the sound of your own chewing, instead of just the sound of others.  Take that into account for next time.

Do you remember at last year's Christmas Eve service, at church, feeling a sense of complete peace come over you that God has wonderful things in store, and by that time next year there may be a little one on its way? And while you didn't know how or when, or anything else about that feeling, you knew that God was in control.  Wow, He is so good.
He. Is. Able.
Yes, there is still so much unknown and you know that anything can happen, but there is peace in this moment. Peace in the One who has a plan, always.
He loves to surprise us, loves to surround us and loves to show up in big ways.  While there are periods of waiting, trusting and praying- we know that He is always there listening and shaping us into who He needs us to be. That never ends. There will always be highs and lows, sunshine and storms but that is what is so great about our Lord - both of those situations can be used to praise Him.

So, while sometimes you can't actually go back and read the first installment of "Dear Mommy Candice" because you have now freaked yourself out about what you won't be able to do (I kid), it's amazing to look back on what this past year and a half has held...trials, learning, growing, joy, new friendships, a new understanding of peace that passes all understanding and now...Lord willing, come April - a baby. Wow.
Thank you, Lord for your gifts; for always teaching us, always molding us, knowing what's best for us, and most importantly, always loving us.

Alright, time to get back to work...this whole "pregnancy brain" thing has you easily forgetting things and easily distract....oh look, a squirrel!


On a serious note though...thank you for ALL of your prayers.  You have no idea how much it means to Will and me.  This baby is already so loved and so lifted up in prayer and that makes my heart swell with joy.  Thank you, thank you...a million times- thank you. 












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  1. AnonymousOctober 8, 2012 at 5:55 PM

    Other people chewing is one of the most annoying and irritating things that people do, pregnant or not, it is hard to refrain from hitting/ hurting the offender. Just my 2 cents. On a positive note, congratulations Candice and Bill!
    Nina Q.

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