Faith Over Fear

My heart is BURSTING just writing this post.  We are so thrilled to announce that Will, Liam and I will be growing our family through domestic adoption!  We can't even express how excited we are to see God work in all of this. Even before Liam was born, adoption was laid on our hearts.  It started as a tiny seed that grew and grew.   I can remember rocking Liam one night and looking at his sweet newborn face thinking, "there are so many children that need homes, a family to call their own and a mommy to rock them."   I felt a tug on my heart then, knowing that this was something the Lord had for us, we just didn't quite know when.  Since that time, we have not been without struggles.  We've experienced 2 miscarriages and a lot of heartache, but God has met us in it all. He's been holding our hands along the way, whispering to us that He has a plan for our family and He is walking this road with us. While yes, we could have gone down the road

Is God good in the absence of things you would define as "good"? Absolutely. Does it always feel that way? Nope. I will be honest and say that I have struggled with this one...sometimes more than I realize. Is God good in the midst of miscarriages, struggles, loss, hardship? This week hit me hard - we bought our first home this past March and then, Monday, our basement flooded.  I was so overwhelmed as it was happening - helpless and nothing we could do to stop it. Honestly, I felt betrayed. I know this sounds dramatic, because it was just water, but this has been a hard year...so bear with me, I'm a bit fragile. I felt betrayed by the house that we bought and love.  I felt betrayed by our sump pump and the water it just couldn't keep up with. But mostly, I felt betrayed by God. "We were finally able to buy a house- why would You bring us to a house that fills with water? That ruins our belongings?" I thought. I even said it out loud to Will.  &quo