Faith Over Fear

"The enemy hates when Christ loving families adopt..."  This is what we were told when we first started the adoption process, and boy did we feel it.  I kid you not, all at once random (and multiple) car problems occurred, Will and I both had dental emergencies, not to mention our basement had just flooded a couple months earlier and we were still dealing with that...and so on.  It was nuts.   I reached out to a few families who had adopted and asked them if we were stupid to move forward...and one by one they reassured me that this was par for the course.  But again...God met us in each one of those icky situations. He was there when the manager of the auto shop told me what was wrong with my car. Followed by me bursting into tears at the counter. I couldn't hold it in (little did I know it was his first day...I'm sure he'll be telling that story for a while...). He asked me if I was alright and I said, "Yes, I'm so sorry. We just started t

In the process In the waiting You're making melodies over me And your presence  Is the promise For I am a pilgrim on a journey ~Shepherd (Bethel Music) In all honesty, the adoption wait has been a little harder on me than I thought it would be.  After dealing with fertility issues before  and  after Liam, I thought I had this waiting thing down.  "No biggie, I've done this many times before..."  I was wrong.  As I sit here, I think of all the times I've just repeated Psalm 13 in my head: "How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?" And sometimes, on hard days, I still do.   But as look back over the past couple of years, I see how Jesus has worked on my heart, how He has changed my desires and tuned my heart to His.  Honestly, none of that would have happened without this wait, as He drew me near and as I leaned into Him. I don't want to waste this wait because, let's be real, none of this is really about me.